Disappear for weeks

Assalamualaikum
Hi guys.
How are you? - I really am sorry for disappearing like that for 2 weeks.

The reason behind that is because between those 2 weeks i've received some devastating news and it's not something about my family or such but about myself and about how much that thing made me disappointed with my own-self.

I know I can be a bit motivated sometimes with my own thoughts and how I can make myself think positively and such but for that moment I can't cause it just hit me that bad until now actually , even though i'm recovering from it bit by bit but Alhamdulillah with God's help I manage to get back up with my spirits held up high and who am I without my amazing family & friends beside me, supporting me all the way. Especially my little one ( Sopna ) , Ashen Gomes who can make me laugh my ass of but then again he knows me well enough to know my hyper-activeness, than you've got Anis Syakirin my sister since primary school and I know Calvin will support me all the way if he knew whats going on right now but I'm not ready yet to talk about it again cause it'll bring me down again. And lastly the one and only my Awesome brother dearest Helmi who knows to much about the situation which I like it like that cause well like you guys know, his my brother that's really close to me.

Anyway I would really like to share the stuff thats happening here with you guys but I just don't feel that ready yet to talk about it cause it'll 'de-motivate' you guys. And that is wrong cause I like to motivate people and not 'de-motivate ' them. But Insya'allah I'll be that positive girl back okay . I promise, i'm just recovering from it slowly..

Owh and I would like to share this one photo with you. It's a picture of the Beach at Port Dickson. It's so beautiful and when I saw it, I was speechless and I just enjoyed every moment of it being there and in my heart I was hoping that I'll get to be at some place like that during my honeymoon - that is if I get married.. "Insya'Allah ".

P/s : I will try to update more soon & i totally forgot this, my junior Aminul called a few days back and I just wanted to thank him for the encouragement and supporting me with what i'm doing. I know we haven't talk for so long because of a " lost contact " issue but it's great having you back. Now the fact that Jalil's busy, I don't know when we're gonna met up again. But Insya'allah someday okay.

Sincerely ,
manglishlife
xoxxo