Torn apart

I think its time for me to share one thing with you guys.

I know this is only a part time thing but who cares right, at least i'm doing the things that I want to do. I'm now actually a Part-time teacher at one tuition center near my house.. 10-15 minutes drive from my house actually. I know , I know there is nothing to fuss about, but to me it's more than that cause I used to dream of being a teacher. Now i got the chance to just experience it . It's gonna be only for a while and I have my own permanent class on Tuesday with 4 students.

I have to get used to it..u know calling  myself  'teacher ' than 'sister' with the students. Even though they are younger than me.. I mean like a lot more younger but respect is the first thing. It always been. I don't want if they call me " sister " they would not respect me as a teacher...better train them now. Like my cousin. Even though she knows that I always pamper her , she would always call me ' Kak Wani ' which shows respect.

I love the idea of being a teacher when I was in high school. Its like, being a teacher is a really good thing that I know I can do it successfully. But then after i've done law. I fall for it a bit to deep and forgotten the feeling I had for teaching.  Now I'm split between two things. But I have the choice. It took me 19 years for me to know myself a bit better and it took me 1 or 2 years to know what i really want.

But then again.I need some help with it. I need the guide. A guide from the older generation, the more experience ones to give me the advice that I need,  and I'm planning to meet them and just have a long talk like i used to have with them. Anyway..a decision have to be made soon. after all the research is D.O.N.E .

What do you think?