Didn't expect.

Hi guys,,
Actually i didn't expect to update this blog today but yeah .. here it is..
Today basically i had a highly intense stress which it's gonna continue..*No doubt about that* but the reason behind it is like so many things and it's enough i update my blog yesterday with a long story about my Raya holidays , so its better off i leave it for a moment ( updating a damn long blog ).. 

Anyway i didn't expect in this situation of mine ( being stressed ) , to be thinking about Helmi. Yerp my oh so STEP bro. Actually i miss him a lot in a sense that i know that he would take care of me like always and such but with him gone in my life i don't really know what to expect. It's like his the bro that knows me well enough to know how to give me advice in somethings and how to cheer me up sometimes. I know people actually come and goes in our life but have u ever wondered how important that person is towards you? Like Helmi, his a bro and not more then that. Never will be more then that because we both can actually see each other as siblings thats really close and we actually take care of each other because he knows i don't have an older brother and he does have a little sister but younger then us which he loves a lot and same goes to me, he treats me like i'm his sister and with me having a difficult life with a difficult situation, i do need someone beside me to help me go through it. i do need the advice and i know there is 2 people in my life that i trust  and love the most which that i know i can tell them this situation of mine but it's a pity to say that i lost both of them and within this 2 people helmi is one of them and azmi is not but some other person * let it be a mystery*. Yes I MISS HELMI a lot but things must go on right? I can face this insya'allah, with the guidance of some lectures of mine whom i treat like my own mom.

OH yes where i left out just now, HAVE YOU WONDERED HOW IMPORTANT THAT PERSON IS TO YOU? If that person is really really important to you, keep em. Put your damn ego away and put things back to where it suppose to be. don't be shy and just do it because i don't want you to regret it later on in the future and being depressed for a long period of time. Trust me I'm telling this through my own point of view and my friends own experienced.

Okay better i end this before it gets to EMO!.hehe . and btw, i want to say sorry to my truest buddy, Anis S. This picture will explained to you why.. * the green thing  is my message to her * :

Yeah, i didn't actually spend time with her like i do every day because we both can actually text each other until 200 massage a day..No Kidding! Anyway..soryy nis ='( . Love you lots <3 !