Confidence

You know, my confidence didn't really came out this past few years but it literally came out this year. For all this while , I've been hiding that confidence and i didn't even notice that, but now i know how confident I am in myself and how I trust my own-self in making my own decisions. All this time, i've been giving people the chance to use me all they want, and what i mean by this is in primary & high school. Thus i know that i didn't have the confidence in myself because i wasn't given the support and guidance that i needed in High school in some sort of activities that i know i can do. But anyway that was the past and now it's a new beginning and that i know i have a lot of people supporting me from behind.

I think living away from your family really gives you the confidence you need and that you would find your true-self and you would really understand yourself much better than before. Well then again sometimes we can't be that confident right because sometimes it can kill u big time. * Smile *

And in other news, i finally met Awatif since it's been a hectic one week i've been bugging her and ask her to save some time for me cause i really wanna meet her and today was the day. We hugged quite tight at first because well that's us and I miss those hugs you know. I really do. Then i brought her home and we talked a lot and she pinch my cheeks and said it's getting chubbier then before. Well it is true and i know she likes to pinch it so much so i didn't even mind when she did that.

I thought BTHO is not my place since everyone i hate is here but then again, it's just better push aside all those bad people and just give space to the people that really loves me for who i am and to those who really understands me and really wanna speed time with me and thats what i did this past one whole week. I'm gonna miss this place. Truly I will. Wait! I'm just gonna miss my family and some of my friends here. bwek!